drama preference

i prefer my drama in fiction
as words published on a page
approved by publishing houses
fictionalized by a well known author
right there in black and white
invited into my life
causing no inconvenience
not invading nor intruding
or disrupting
fiction does not reek of bad habits
it does not perform out of guilt
if i feel threatened or angry
i can turn the page
i can put the book down
if the dialogue is repetitive or uninteresting
i can skip a paragraph or a chapter
i can do away with it all together
its simply a matter of drama preference

simply unsettled

a fleeting moment
my stomach drops
instincts flash red
on edge
fears unconfirmed
old habits play tricks
manipulating my paranoia
simple insecurities be falsified
walking away from my past
but haunts my present
nagging at my future
something ominous
dreams of years pale
do closing hours near?
disprove my agitation
abate the slow faint sadness forming in my heart
speak your concern or insecurity
speak it now
or simply settle my psychotic paranoia